look for what seems out of place

today was a long day.
baby girl has brought home pink.eye and it's been a bitch since 11pm last night. every few hours throughout the night, she would say, "momma, wipe my eyes for me. i can't see."
it's the middle of the night. why do you need to see?

got her to the dr this morning and had her checked out.
putting drops in her eyes is like an exorcism. i never thought something could be so damn difficult.

we all had lunch with J today. big girl had a friend with her so they sat at a table with baby girl - they all thought they were hot shit at their own table.

i've spent a fair amount of time with J lately. we have gone out of our way to hang out the past few weeks and it's been good.
i keep telling myself that we are just friends. past is past, what was is gone.
but there will always be something in my heart that won't ever say no to her.

tomorrow at 11am, baby girl will be 6 years old.
we had cake and presents yesterday with the outlaws before they left town.
she got a princess bike that she's wanted since last year.

next week is the show.
it's created a bit of anxiety for me for some reason.
i'm taking the husband this year and J is going with us. my tech and his girlfriend are going but i really hope to NOT meet up with them.

other than that...
i got nothin.

it's ok
it goes this way
the line is thin
it twists away
cuts you up
it throws about
keep me walking but never shout