change of seasons
today was full of irony.
some subtle and some right in your face.
i made the comment to someone today that i was going to spend this weekend cleaning out my house and getting rid of the crap in my life.
little did i know that, 8 hours later, i would be watching Y walk out for the last time.
she left her ring this time. she's never left her ring - she's asked for my ring back but has NEVER taken off her ring and thrown it at me, telling me to shove it up my ass.
i'm so tapped emotionally.
i don't know what to do other than watch her walk and wish her well.
i'm so worn out from the accusations, the doubt, the crap... just all of it.
i made mention not too long ago about feeling down because my friends that seemed to understand my situation were no longer able to make time, especially now that i had time. that's changed in the past week or so and that's helped tremendously. it's brought about the confidence i used to have and allowed me to make some sound decisions.
*two hours have passed since starting this post*
i'm going to go to bed. it's not that i'm tired but shit! i'm exhausted.
some subtle and some right in your face.
i made the comment to someone today that i was going to spend this weekend cleaning out my house and getting rid of the crap in my life.
little did i know that, 8 hours later, i would be watching Y walk out for the last time.
she left her ring this time. she's never left her ring - she's asked for my ring back but has NEVER taken off her ring and thrown it at me, telling me to shove it up my ass.
i'm so tapped emotionally.
i don't know what to do other than watch her walk and wish her well.
i'm so worn out from the accusations, the doubt, the crap... just all of it.
i made mention not too long ago about feeling down because my friends that seemed to understand my situation were no longer able to make time, especially now that i had time. that's changed in the past week or so and that's helped tremendously. it's brought about the confidence i used to have and allowed me to make some sound decisions.
*two hours have passed since starting this post*
i'm going to go to bed. it's not that i'm tired but shit! i'm exhausted.
1 Comments:
She's walked out so many "last times," I almost don't believe this is the "last time." You're exhausted, but you keep letting her back in.
What does it take? Throwing the ring in your face is not symbolic; it's Y being dramatic because she's so unstable. She thinks that by doing that, you'll conform to her demands.
Are you truly above all that or will you keep letting her play these mind games? When will you actually ignore her calls, delete her voice mails without listening to them, or stop picking up the phone when she calls?
Seriously. I don't get it. There's something very wrong with her; she needs the kind of help you aren't licensed to give her. I don't mean to be harsh; I'm being honest. I'd never give you anything but honesty and you know that.
For G-d's sake, STOP PICKING UP THE GODDAMNED PHONE WHEN SHE CALLS. YOU CAN'T CHANGE HER.
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