merry xmas, my love

therapy has helped a lot.
i hate that i put it off for too long.

that was one thing that he always encouraged me to do - go back to therapy.
just so i could talk and get it all out.

i wish i didn't have such a tendency to hold it all in.

but with him, i never bit my tongue. i could always say what i wanted/needed to say. that was such a big part of 'us' and i miss it so much.

anyway - i finally got it done.
another thing i put off for too long.

it's been in a pizza box in the top of my closet since june.... was going to be his christmas present.
when he was here in september, i showed him and he LOVED it.

something else for me to hang on to, with nothing but love.




and that priority box - that's been in the hall for at least two months.
i've got to send that to you, A. what in the hell am i waiting on?