stupidity - version 3.6

i've tried to let go of some things over the years. for whatever reason, i tend to hang on to things that just don't warrant being hung on to. but if it means anything to me, i refuse to let it go.
or so it seems.

i thought i had done a good job at letting go when i went several months with nothing from my friend in cali (ya. remember him? not the person that got me drunk on the pier in santa monica, but him - without the capital H). i really felt like i had conquered something major by letting go of that. the words that were shared made it seem as if it was understood and it was over.

but last week, my phone rang.
a lot.

and i think he's trying to get back something he feels like he's missed.

however - this time, he's seeking paternity.
he knows the baby isn't his. he's known this for years. there was a time when we were scared into thinking the baby was his but i've known the truth.
shit - he knows the truth.
but the truth doesn't seem to matter.
or something.

words were exchanged, thoughts passed back and forth.
he said he's prepared to sue for a test.
i told him to bring it on.

dumb mutha'fucker.