tell me something..

what do you think of this guy? is he a case of something extraordinary or has he sold his soul to the devil for the honor of making folks think he's something extraordinary?

i think he's incredible.
you know - provided he's the real thing.
and from what i've seen, he seems like the real thing.
doesn't he?

i'm going to get tickets to go see him.
i'd really like to have a personal reading done but he doesn't do those much. nor do i have the bank roll to finance something like that anyway.

i don't know what it's going to take for any sort of closure with things.
i don't want to be five years down the road and still crying every single day for a love that was too brief.
i want to be living life five years from now - not stuck on october 19, 2006.

it's only been three months - that's pocket change in the grand scheme of things.
but i'm selfish.
i want something.

i know he's with me - in my heart and in my mind.
i know he loved me with everything he was and i know he wanted me like i wanted (still want) him.

i just want some confirmation, i guess.
just something to let me know that it will be okay and i will see him again and that he is with me all the time, watching over me and loving me from some other place in time.

my heart is so broken and i just want something to help me mend it.
somehow.

What you’ve become
Just as I have
Are you and I so unalike
Huddled here
You just as I am
Afraid if we dance
We will die
Mock the world
Live safe say why
Don’t you know
When you give life
Then you become
What you are

The sea is unsparing
We’re all drifting away
Away from you
But I pray for you now
Hoping to god on high
Is like clinging to straws
While drowning