Tuesday, February 6, 2007

famous quotes for $1000, alex

who became immortal with saying,
"trying to study for a final with
a sick four year old around is like
taking a bologna sandwich to a bbq."


. . . . .

sometimes when i think i'm crystal clear, something happens that fogs it all up again. don't know if it goes back to secrets being discovered or the fact that the line in the sand has been drawn (read: carved in stone angor wat style).

not that the pain will ever be gone - i will always hurt with the loss of my friend, but it was getting easier to find some joy in the fact that time was well spent together.
but i've been reduced to tears at the mere thought lately. this morning, a scent brought me to my knees. yesterday, it was a song on xm. later, it will be something else..


i'd like to think that maybe i'm getting some reminders, that he's letting me know he still thinks of me and it's these little gestures that i'm supposed to pick up on - that he knows my heart will be broken forever and he never wants me to forget what we shared.

or something.

or maybe i'm just so bound up on the inside again, knowing that on friday, i'll be standing over his grave again, crying like i did the day he died.


..every day i wonder "is today the day?"

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