um - ya. but no.

some observations:

- if one is receiving regional chemo and this particular part is a part of a larger system of systems that loses contents to the environment on a monthly basis, would said contents that are lost to the environment be toxic?

- and why would this system of systems that does lose contents to the environment always seem to kick into overdrive when i'm so god dammed stressed out about a test situation?

it's like the icing on the cake.

okay. so i guess those aren't really observations, but whatever.

it's my page. i'll write what i want to.


the dog needs a bath (what's new, right?).
the kitchen needs to be swept (it's another day, right?).
i backed out of a lunch date at the last minute (well, two hours before the scheduled time so i guess that's not really last minute, right?).

i lied and said that the baby was sick and i needed to pick her up from school.

honestly - i was too fucking lazy to get up and get ready to drive across town for a liquid lunch. not that i'll be spending that time that i would have at a bar laughing and carrying on doing constructive things (read: study), but i just don't feel like being in public today.

and i feel bad about it because i really like the gal i was supposed to meet. she's way cool and the last time we had lunch (which was the first time we met IRL), it was a totally great time. but i'm just not feeling very social this week.

i just want to curl up and sleep the week away.
i want to go to bed and when i get up, it be saturday. to completely skip thursday would be awesome, albeit impossible.

but when i do lay in bed at night and sleep has a hard time finding me, i am trying to do constructive things to keep my mind busy.

even though i lost most of my digital photos on that fucking external HD, i did manage to dig up a few cds with some files on them. it was like finding buried treasure, i tell ya.

and on a personal note:

CN - i'm totally digging the music from the band. next pay day, i'm investing in the cd. unless, of course, you can pull some strings for me. cough

Devil - i'm glad you are planning on writing more. you sound as if you are finding some ground through it all. that counts so very much for folks like us. and i want to see some of your photos!

SD - i've been meaning to send you some mail but honestly, i dread the response time. just know that i'm thinking good things always.
and i've been seeing the three's company beach scene in my thoughts a lot lately. but dammit - it was so high in the air! you deserve a nice round of applause for even getting me that high in the air. and high in general =)

EM - well, you know. always.