you are always on my mind

to my newest commenter - yes, i am losing my mind. i know i need intervention and i'm taking the appropriate steps to get it. there is only one thing that will truly free my mind [and it's not en vogue, even though the rest will follow]. if you haven't figured that out in the short time you've been hanging around, all you gotta do is ask your see-store. she's a wealth of information. heh..

tonight is the last class before exams start next week.
monday is the scan final (38 images in 45 minutes) and tuesday is the written final (on 354,592 renal pathologies*, spleen, retroperitoneal/peritoneal cavity shit).
i've been maintaining a consistent B for the last five weeks so that's eased my mind a bit.

but not much.

my brain feels full. i can't pack in any more information without trying to get rid of some of what's in there.
once again, i feel like i'm memorizing things and not necessarily learning them.

but i guess that's how it's going to go, really. just learn what i need to to get by and get the practical shit on site at the hospital.
hell - it's not the ultrasound tech's job to diagnose anyway. that's the rads job.
but i do need to know what in the fuck i'm doing.

damn.

i do feel a bit rejuvenated.
maybe more like 'validated' though.
we had some scan time last night and my only friend in class has been having some pain in her side the past day and a half. she's been saying it's pms (since it's that time). i told her i could scan her ovaries - that i knew how.
ended up scanning six girls in class.
it was cool to see varying stages of ovary with no visible follicles and then with my only friend and her huge follicles that are normal with ovulation.
everyone - even my teacher - was quite impressed and it made me feel better about my skill.

overall, i do feel good about school.
knowing that i'm working towards something that is going to mean so much. but that is sometimes the hardest part of it all - keeping my mind on the goal.

graduation + job = freedom.

and even though i have like... two male readers, i know the women that read have husbands (some of them. i know one that will never have a husband. heh..).
after seeing two prostate biopsies (back to back. or ass to ass - however you want to think of it), please on please take care of your prostates, men.
i swear - you don't EVER want to have a biopsy of that done. you will bleed out your asshole for days, have blood in your semen for months, in your urine for weeks, and hate life forever.

yes, that is the biopsy kit.
and yes, they take 12 samples.
and most definitely yes - it looks like hell on earth.