isn't sunshine supposed to make you feel good?
i really don't even know where the time has gone...
the past week or so has almost become a total blur.
last week with all the tests and finals - and it all came to a head on friday afternoon.
after being told that i didn't have to retake the scan final, my phone rang at 5:50 friday afternoon. we were halfway between home and the outlaws.
it was my teacher telling me that yes, i needed to retake the scan final. even though i had a passing grade, i needed to pass each of the scans to pass the class.
yes - that totally set the tone for the weekend out of town.
while we were out of town, i wanted to come home with a pup.
there was a litter of labs that i went to look at (only because there were two brown ones) but they were only a week old.
and it dawned on me that as soon as i claimed a pup, my dear friend's mom would probably tell me that i could bring home the sportdog.
no way can i go from one 100 pound dog to two 100 pound dogs and a pup that would be 100 pounds within a year.
on monday, i didn't go to the hospital. i feigned illness and went to the day lab rather than class that night. i did have the opportunity to do my retake during class so i didn't have to go tuesday for the scheduled retake.
since it was a retake, my teacher would not be grading it but the director of the program.
great.
on tuesday, my teacher said that i got a 95 on it but since it was a retake, it's entered into the system as a passing 75.
what was the fucking point?
the new class is only three days old and it's already kicking my ass.
a test tonight over three chapters and the next test is tuesday over six chapters.
it's going to be like this for the next 15 weeks.
i'm stressed the fuck out.
i'm so over school.
i'm so over marriage.
my house is trashed and won't be clean until i can find the time to do it.
my kids are out of control due to the lack of attention.
i'm so fucking aggravated i want tostab anyone that gives me shit scream.
but what can i do but keep on keeping on...
the past week or so has almost become a total blur.
last week with all the tests and finals - and it all came to a head on friday afternoon.
after being told that i didn't have to retake the scan final, my phone rang at 5:50 friday afternoon. we were halfway between home and the outlaws.
it was my teacher telling me that yes, i needed to retake the scan final. even though i had a passing grade, i needed to pass each of the scans to pass the class.
yes - that totally set the tone for the weekend out of town.
while we were out of town, i wanted to come home with a pup.
there was a litter of labs that i went to look at (only because there were two brown ones) but they were only a week old.
and it dawned on me that as soon as i claimed a pup, my dear friend's mom would probably tell me that i could bring home the sportdog.
no way can i go from one 100 pound dog to two 100 pound dogs and a pup that would be 100 pounds within a year.
on monday, i didn't go to the hospital. i feigned illness and went to the day lab rather than class that night. i did have the opportunity to do my retake during class so i didn't have to go tuesday for the scheduled retake.
since it was a retake, my teacher would not be grading it but the director of the program.
great.
on tuesday, my teacher said that i got a 95 on it but since it was a retake, it's entered into the system as a passing 75.
what was the fucking point?
the new class is only three days old and it's already kicking my ass.
a test tonight over three chapters and the next test is tuesday over six chapters.
it's going to be like this for the next 15 weeks.
i'm stressed the fuck out.
i'm so over school.
i'm so over marriage.
my house is trashed and won't be clean until i can find the time to do it.
my kids are out of control due to the lack of attention.
i'm so fucking aggravated i want to
but what can i do but keep on keeping on...
3 Comments:
I have no words... just know I'm listening. The pressure has to be enormous. I'm sorry.
With every day, the end is nearer. Keep your eye on the prize.
ahh, my friend, for just 10 minutes, clear out of your mind, let it all go... focus on your breath – in, ouuut, innnn, ouuut, innnn, ouuuut, count one for each breath - one...one...one...one,.. then let that go too – i’m sending energy your way - be of good cheer, you’re tough, i know you’ll get through this...;-)
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