true reflections

i feel obligated to post something but really, i have nothing.

things i'm feeling lately -
frustrated.
disconnected.
aggravated.
unsettled.
lonely.
anxious.
and just plain sad.

this time next week, we will be up in the woods making an attempt to celebrate the life of my dear friend.

a whole fucking year will have passed and it seems like an eternity.

but i've done what we set out to do - the plans that we made together, for a future that would have been great. to have our separate lives melt into one that would have ensured happiness.

does it make me sad and pathetic for me to live my life like we would have had it.... the way we planned for the future to be?

i don't care how sad it might seem.
it's how i'm doing things.

tomorrow is another day, right?

i guess i did have something to say.
heh...