dysfunction
i understand why the big girl is experiencing all this shit.
my husband may have come from podunk small town, s0uth ge0rgia, with very limited life experiences, but he's right. it all comes from me.
insanity is hereditary.
hell - bowling is hereditary. my mom and i prove that shit every week.
heh..
i've been thinking about this for the past few days - how cyclical things are with the big girl and how her father understands none of it other than it's all my fault for being depressed, the depression comes from my side of the family...
whatever.
the situation breeds the behavior.
and with that, i started to think about how true it is.
that a situation is dealt with according to behavior. whatever is going on, how you deal with it matters, too.
and that got me thinking about the other people in my life.
never matters what the preference is at the time, there is always someone there.
the car man, the guy on the west coast, my gal on the other side of the bay, my carpet guy, the christmas tree guy*, the one that won't give in.... and then there is the ever present husband, and i don't want him at all.
i just can't help but think that i'm instilling this behavior in my children subconsciously or some shit like that.
i've never been blatantly in their face with any thing that remotely resembles indiscretion but the dear husband has a tendency to talk too much trying to gain confidence in the big girl by making me look bad.
anyway - it's friday.
no school but therapy this evening.
and then i'm stopping by a bachelorette party for a gal on my bowling team. she's moving waayyy up north next week and getting married on the fat man in a red suit eve.
hmm... tomorrow. need to go to the scan lab and get some practice in. i can scan a baby but i'll be damned if i can scan a pancreas or abd0minal a0rta any more.
sunday - i've got study group.
heh..
*he came back for the freezer, we drank a beer or three and laughed for about an hour.
won't see him again until he brings me christmas tree 2008.
my husband may have come from podunk small town, s0uth ge0rgia, with very limited life experiences, but he's right. it all comes from me.
insanity is hereditary.
hell - bowling is hereditary. my mom and i prove that shit every week.
heh..
i've been thinking about this for the past few days - how cyclical things are with the big girl and how her father understands none of it other than it's all my fault for being depressed, the depression comes from my side of the family...
whatever.
the situation breeds the behavior.
and with that, i started to think about how true it is.
that a situation is dealt with according to behavior. whatever is going on, how you deal with it matters, too.
and that got me thinking about the other people in my life.
never matters what the preference is at the time, there is always someone there.
the car man, the guy on the west coast, my gal on the other side of the bay, my carpet guy, the christmas tree guy*, the one that won't give in.... and then there is the ever present husband, and i don't want him at all.
i just can't help but think that i'm instilling this behavior in my children subconsciously or some shit like that.
i've never been blatantly in their face with any thing that remotely resembles indiscretion but the dear husband has a tendency to talk too much trying to gain confidence in the big girl by making me look bad.
anyway - it's friday.
no school but therapy this evening.
and then i'm stopping by a bachelorette party for a gal on my bowling team. she's moving waayyy up north next week and getting married on the fat man in a red suit eve.
hmm... tomorrow. need to go to the scan lab and get some practice in. i can scan a baby but i'll be damned if i can scan a pancreas or abd0minal a0rta any more.
sunday - i've got study group.
heh..
*he came back for the freezer, we drank a beer or three and laughed for about an hour.
won't see him again until he brings me christmas tree 2008.
2 Comments:
You have to lead by example. She will only put up with later what you do now.
And he needs to stop talking to her like that. He's not her friend.
don’t be hard on yourself; if insanity were truly hereditary, we’d all be insane...oops, bad example...;-)~
but seriously, insanity is everywhere, and in everyone’s families (whether it’s out of the closet or not). and isn’t alcoholism a from of insanity too?...
as Einstein said, doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results is insanity... and don’t tell me that you differentiate “clinical” insanity, because as Nietzsche said, “All things are subject to interpretation whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth.”
so yes, we’re all somewhat insane...it defines humanity... so what?... enjoy it!...;-)~
xo
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