another one down

this weekend is the big race and i won't be there.
rain knocked out qualifying today - i haven't checked the weather to find out what it's supposed to be like the rest of the weekend.

what i can say with certainty is that on sunday, when the finals are on that sports channel #2 (provided the weather holds out), i will have the tv surround sound on and turned up too damn loud, and crying on the inside.

as much as i wanted to go this year, i just couldn't.
well, i couldn't because i don't have a sitter for babygirl [would a comma go here?] with husband being in the woods fishing and the parents in eur0pe.
but i talked to babygirl and dug out biggirl's old headphones and she got excited about it. being outside all day in the sun, eating a picnic lunch in the sun, watching the cars do 330 mph in 1320 feet...... and she said, "momma, i don't wike fasth car ray-thin'."

fuck.

i'm still kicking around driving up tomorrow.... with so much qualifying to get in over the course of one day, we'd get to see some night racing!
personally - i've never seen night racing. my dear friend did when he went to the r0ck all by himself one year.

i guess i've just got some $ in my pocket to burn, really.

but not really - i talked to the ink guy today. he's really excited about what i want to do on my arm and wants a few days to draw it up. i go back on tues and have it 'fitted' to the space.
i took him about 15 photos of the subject so he will have a good grasp on the art of it.
so if the dude is gonna take three days to draw up my idea (based on his artistic talent), i guess i'm committed to let him put something on my arm, eh?

and i'm so jonesing to go back to se asia.
november 2009. i'd like to leave the first of the month and come home the monday before turkey day.
biggirl asked me today why i always want to go in november, rather than the summer when she can go. i had to explain the whole rainy season thing that ends in october.
she was none too excited about traveling to the other side of the planet to hang out in the rain.
"i can do that in my back yard and look at a book about the temples and imagine that i'm really there."

uh - sure.
but it surely isn't the same.
heh..

i think i just miss my dad.
his latest email -

A quick "Hello" from T-1 [his building #]! Got here about an hour ago.
Took a walk, got some liquid supplies anda bite to eat from the "chicken lady" downstairs, and now waiting for Psycho Bitch [his 35 year old school teacher thai girlfriend that doesn't want to be treated like some asian whore] to show up withthe appropriate body parts to complete my evening.
I don't get back down here that often but I always think of you when I plug those 2 AAA batteries intothe remote for the A/C and it fires up!
Mu@ng Th0ng has really grown - you'd hardly recognize it now. I'm not going to complain too much on thatone though. It was a ghost town when I bought this place and I like it more now. More to do, a lot more to eat, etc.
Drove across the bridge this morning with the whole clan - Momma, Dad, Pookie & Pancake! We did someshopping in Ud0n before they kicked me out at the airport. Got here (T-1) about 5:30pm so just missed the Fri rush hour.
A nice weekend I hope.......have an early flight on Monday.I must say, old Dad had my bestinterests at heart.......I'm going to Camb0dia, but he side-tracked me to BKK for 3 days first ( "on business" ) just so I could spend a few nights in the City of Angels (sigh). The funny part is that he got me per Diem plus taxi fare, meal expenses, etc., while I'm here! (Thanks again US t@xpayers!). Finally, I've reached my goal!!!! NOW I can finally call myself, "Bmy dad'sAname! Male Prostitute!"
I'm actually getting paid to be in BKK and spend the weekend in the sack with the old lady!
Life is a bitch.
I hope to snap a few more flix this trip - here and in Cambo, and post em on the web at some point. I'll keep ya up to date with the house renovation so you have an idea where you'll be crashing next year!
Hold down the fort!
Tell everyone I said "Hey"................I love you! Dad

ya. i think i just miss my dad.