it's been awhile

since i could hold my head up high

it's been something, that's for sure.
not really busy or hectic, just busy and hectic.
huh?
something always going on, someone always needing something, someone always demanding more....
ya.

the show last wed was just fab.
let me know if you want a copy of it - it was available for download the next damn day!
(last year, the show here didn't wang up on the net for three months!)
the husband and J went with me. there was a lot of alcohol-fueled emotion that night but in the end, i kept my voice and set the record straight.

been working like a bitch lately, too. my tech told me friday that he's confident that i need to 'work' through the end of sept (my last day is supposed to be 9/5), as i am not where i should be for this far along in my externship.
he's supposed to call my clinical instructor and discuss it with him next week and then go from there.

the girls - well, they are the girls.
big girl is either home with someone here or she's at someone's house. mentally - she's doing very well. she has her moments but when it does happen, it's more 'i'm 14 years old and gonna be a loose-lipped pain in the ass' than 'i'm slipping into a dysfunctional manic dissociative episode and can't control my behavior.'
if there has to be one, it's so much better for it to be normal 14 year old behavior rather than some mental something i really still don't understand.

baby girl is rotten. so far this summer, she has wedged herself so far up her father's ass that she only listens to him and throws a lot of tantrums.
i'm not sure what to say other than she needs intervention most of the day to keep her from getting hurt or getting bored.

my therapist is losing her state funded job as of aug 15. i'm supposed to bring a provider list to my next visit.
there is a chance that she will find a job somewhere and we can follow her but she said to not count on it.

i don't want to have to shop for a new therapist.
dammit.

today after work, i did do some dr shopping though.
my tech had to go to a gyn office to show a lady how to use the ultras0und machine. he wanted me to go because it was the same type of machine that we have in the lab at school, and one he hasn't worked on ever.
i've met the dr on rounds at the hospital and my tech gets samples of his girfriend's anti.depressants from him, so it was a pretty lax environment and conversation.

after talking for a few minutes, i asked about a procedure. all i gotta do is make an appt with him for an initial consult and bam! he will write up what i need for my partia1 hysterect0my!

gah. i've been trying to write this post for the last three days.
strange how i end up on the back porch of my mom's, baby girl in the pool, and the mange dog (that amazingly has no more mange after the round of iv.antibi0tics) at my feet, finishing this post.

what else....

once again, my house will be invaded by outlaws.
my husband's brother and his family (5), dog included, will be here wed.
we are going down to the beach on thurs evening. i've got to come back sun for 'work' on mon, while everyone else will be home later mon night.

i will be honest. that sun evening, i will be looking for trouble.