catharsis

with my divorce pretty much in the works, it's taken me some time to get my shit together enough to purge my life of what it was.

for the last 18 years (sept 15, 1990 - nov 28, 2008), i was with a man that i grew to hate. one that had good intentions but could never follow through.

in the beginning, our love was young and new and meant the world. but what did i know? there was so much to discover yet.

with an unplanned pregnancy, we were married. from then on, it was a farce.

this morning, i dug a box out of the closet. a box that contained every single letter, card, note, thought on paper i had ever written for him. i stared at it for a few minutes and saw our entire relationship.

and i put it exactly where it needed to be.