my big girl

so, big girl has been living with her father since the first week of august.
she's going to the county high school and active in the y0uth group at church.
she got her first progress report monday - one class a 93 average, the other 6 classes all about 95.
she's met up with some kids she knew from kindergarten and first grade.
she's met some new people in the process.
she's even got a boyfriend (imagine that).

from everything i'm hearing in all directions.... she's doing very well.
this pleases me to no end.

however......

we are coming into her cycle time again.
the beginning of the school year is great. new people, new routine, good grades...
and then when the newness wears off and people fall into their places with each other - the drama begins, friends divide, routine sucks, grades suffer...
and by christmas, she's a mental disaster. not eating, obviously depressed, starts to act out even tho withdrawing, grades in the shitter...

she's miserable.

i can't help but think that she is beginning her cycle all over again, just in a new environment.
i can't help but think 'its just a matter of time before the crash and burn begins' and it starts all over.
i can't help but think that if she does crash - can his family deal with it? mainly - can his father deal with it?

she is going to start therapy up there. her first appt is the end of oct.
as far as i know, she is still on her meds. the place she will go to therapy - they have already had an initial visit and have been told if she runs out, they will write her scripts prior to her appt.
she's taking 150mg of this, 20 mg of this, and 100 mg of this every night.

.....


anyway - here she is a few days before she left with her extensions in.
from my cell camera.
she wanted extensions for about 6 months. we finally do it and it lasted about 2 days.

damn, i miss her..