aw damn... the last post was the four two oh

i feel good this morning.
i think i slept well.
i think my effort of eating better is paying off.

my body just feels good.

mentally, well - it's falling into place.
i've got keys to the beach in hand.
it's on.
i love the fact that i can walk out on the beach friday night at midnight and when the sun comes up saturday. the weather is going to be fanfuckingtastic.

[long pause while i txt some and gaze out the window.
the rain is coming ahead of this 'cold front' that is going to cool things off about 10 degrees.
thank god.. i need to mow.]

the photo from yesterday where you can sorta see my desk wall...
on the cork board is a thing baby girl drew for me probably about two years ago.
at the most two years.
i think..

anyway...

as you can see - it's different.
it's a drawing/cut out of me with a tshirt that says 'i heart you.'

and yes. those are my tits - with nipples - on the outside of my shirt.

i asked baby girl to tell me about her drawing.
she told me about it being me and i'm the best momma and i had a tshirt on that says i love you on the front and usa on the back (but it really says her name only on the back).

and she said 'and those are your b00bies, momma.'
but baby girl.... why are they on the outside of my shirt?
'because they are so big, momma.'

it's been on my cork board ever since...