not too long between posts...

i'm sitting at the end of the bed with my laptop sliding off my legs. baby girl is outside playing with the kids across the street. it's almost time to call her in and do the night time routine...

i felt like i needed to write something.

i can't remember what i posted last time. i think Y had just left.
well, she came back.
for three days.

when she left, she sent many a hateful txt msg that i did not respond to. i wasn't home when she got the few things she had brought back. she called me a coward and that i was missing my last opportunity to talk her into staying.

i didn't respond to her until today.
i told her i missed her, she rubbed it in my face that she's been seeing a c0p, called me names, and i left it alone.

there is a big part of me that wants to sit in bed and cry.
cry because she's not here.

but the peace of the house overtakes me and i realize - H0LYSHIT THE HOUSE IS SO DAMN QUIET AND I'M NOT FIGHTING!

i miss her.
but it's awesome.

and A - i have not heard from my travel voucher ad.
heh..