my dear friend

today would have been his 45th birthday.

things are really changing.
life is moving on..
i'm trying to not become stagnate..
organization is happening..
consistency is important.

excited about my upcoming b0wling trip..
will spend some time with a friend from a lifetime ago after that..
then the family reuni0n..
then a plan because clevel@nd rocks.

today it's hot outside. mid 80s feels like summertime already.
big girl and her cousin are at the mall.
i'm in the process of making jelly. bought three flats of strawberries a few days ago.
i haven't accomplished much since being unempl0yed but i feel like i'm establishing my roots at home again. that's important to me right now.

i'm finding myself in it all. as hurt as i've been and for as much as i've longed for lately, i see the light.

and i miss my dear friend. i've thought of him a lot lately and wondered about many things. being in the woods a few weeks ago felt so good.
it felt like home.

i'll always love him.