after midnignt..

i totally had a high school type 3 hour phone call this evening.
it was so fun to rehash and discover the growth and learn more about the life..

we talked about a trip together a few days ago. for a brief moment, we gave it serious thought but it's been postponed. with him coming down with his son the following month, two trips just isn't realistic.
i'm a little disappointed but at the same time glad.
it needs to be a 'no pressure' type situation first.
like it will be going to a ball game in july with kids, know what i mean?

this guy - he was really something to me at one time.
and we shared an experience that is hard to remember but forever connects us on a very moral level.
he was my best friend, my lover, my number one.. he was probably the one person i've ever dated that was truly honest and sincere and genuine.

and he's just that to this day.

we talked about relationships and families and experiences that have made us who we are today.
he's done some things that i would have NEVER EVER expected outta him.
i'm confident i said some things that he NEVER EVER expected outta me.

at the end of the call, we looked forward to the next - we compared our schedules for tomorrow.

it's odd comfort.
it feels good - it's warm and familiar and just the same as i remember it.
but it's something so out of the ordinary.

all i wanted to do was track him down and return his class ring and a bracelet his beloved granpa gave him many years ago.
and it took me about 5 years to do it and about $60 in memberships to various sites i thought he would be part of.
and i found him. eventually.

a long time ago - after the moral humilation and the passing of the relationship, my mom told me that he was going to be my 'when.harry.met.sally' in this life.

i was 19 when i left him for R. still such a baby in this life, just learning to walk..

we had no clue what the future had in store for us then...