my sunburn is itchy and peeling

another day...

been working a lot this week. it's been sweaty, hot, achy in my neck and left shoulder....
but i got the job offer. officially.

talked to the big boss today about things. i will train with either my auntie or one other person. they want me ready to do the job in august.

but for now, i continue to goo.

i haven't talked to Y since...
uh....
i don't remember exactly.

since i had to do a hard.reset on my phone, i lost a shitload of txt msgs from her. i hate that.
but then again, there is still a sense of relief in it.

i like going through my days and not having the constant nagging and berating and accusations up my ass.
when it's time to go to bed, that's when i miss her the most.
and in the morning, when i'm pouring my coffee - i miss her then, too.

i don't miss her dishes or her laundry or her smoking or her hair dryer or her work clothes or her dogs.
but i miss her truck in the driveway and watching her in the shower and finding her socks and doing crossword puzzles and her hand in mine...

i'm doing ok though.
there are enough of the things that i don't miss that counteract the things i do miss.

it doesn't make me want to call her.
it doesn't make me want to find out what we can salvage.
it doesn't make me want to drive by her house to see if there is an unknown car there...

i know she bought furniture.
this was something she was dragging her feet on - hoping i'd ask her to come back. she did say that once she bought furniture, there was no coming back.

so, i guess she ain't coming back...

but i haven't asked either.

and i'm looking forward to the weekend.
baby girl and my mom and i are going shopping - getting ready for our big family reuni0n trip.
and i've gotta work in the yard and wash the brown dog and the car.

and hang out and be cool with baby girl.