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it's been eventful.

two weekends ago, i went to a fet.ish club with a friend of mine. it was quite interesting, indeed. a voyeur's wet dream, indeed.
no sex but lots of pasties and duct tape. lots of flogging and suspension. lots of leather and lace. and waayyy too many double 7n7s in me, that's for certain.

i spent the entire next day throwing up, so hungover.
and so anticipating the next club event in march.
heh..

last weekend, baby girl ended up at the beach with my mom due to her being sick.
i wasn't at the beach 8 hours before i was sick.
this time, it was legit and it was my lower gee.eye tract and it was miserable.
from 10am sat to 8am sun, i was in bed.

it took me a few days to shake that bad feeling. it was tues before i ate, i think..

i got baby girl a dog.
when Y left, she took the pup we got at the turkey holiday. the pup was rightfully hers. it is what it is.
but baby girl was very upset about this loss.
and i set out to fix it.
and by god, momma did.

on valen.tines day, i took my baby girl out to dinner and then told her i had a big surprise for her. but we had to go alllll the way to the airport to get it.
she was so excited when she saw the pup.. so happy to have a dog of her own.

this pup and our tanker have the same father.
great fucking bloodline.
i think we have our breeder...


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i need you to know something.
i've been strong.
i've been confident.
i've been lonely but have found so much solace in home and my family and this routine and this life of love and happiness.

the problems of others - i can not let that be my burden. it's not my insecurities and inabilities that rule others. it's not anyone's insecurities or inabilities that rule me.

i'm back and i'm better than ever.