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i like my little blooger icon thing - my 'made for me' l0ng island with custom ice.
those were good days when i would frequent this place.
there was a gal that worked there that became a very good friend of mine. if there was anyone on the planet that i could be with eternally, it would have been her. she was my rock&roller gal.. my ideal in a woman.
but she wasn't like that. she was one of the closest friends i've ever had - one of those things that just happens and fits really great together.
but she knew how i felt about her. she knew exactly how i felt about her.
her husband - the loser prick he was - didn't like the fact that her and i were close. he began to give her shit, instigate fights, and be more of an ass.
because of what he was doing to her, based on me, i felt it was better to ease off and let them work their shit out. and they had a lot of shit to work out.
(he didn't work much, their house was going into foreclosure, lived beyond their means..)
of course, it was hard for me to be friends with her, too. i was with Y. i couldn't have friends.
my friendship was clandestine and it just plain out sucked.
with the events of last week (wow. tomorrow is a week already), i reached out to her to apologize for walking away from our friendship but i was not able to contribute to it and it was causing trouble between her and her husband.
we talked about 15 minutes. she assured me that i treated our frienship like shit and that she can't just put her trust right back into me.
i never hurt her - i never lied to her, i never stabbed her in the back, i never nothing negative ever against her. but i did walk away because her husband didn't like me liking his wife.
i've made effort every day since saturday afternoon since we talked to be a part of her day with trying to call her and txt msgs to no avail.
those were good days when i would frequent this place.
there was a gal that worked there that became a very good friend of mine. if there was anyone on the planet that i could be with eternally, it would have been her. she was my rock&roller gal.. my ideal in a woman.
but she wasn't like that. she was one of the closest friends i've ever had - one of those things that just happens and fits really great together.
but she knew how i felt about her. she knew exactly how i felt about her.
her husband - the loser prick he was - didn't like the fact that her and i were close. he began to give her shit, instigate fights, and be more of an ass.
because of what he was doing to her, based on me, i felt it was better to ease off and let them work their shit out. and they had a lot of shit to work out.
(he didn't work much, their house was going into foreclosure, lived beyond their means..)
of course, it was hard for me to be friends with her, too. i was with Y. i couldn't have friends.
my friendship was clandestine and it just plain out sucked.
with the events of last week (wow. tomorrow is a week already), i reached out to her to apologize for walking away from our friendship but i was not able to contribute to it and it was causing trouble between her and her husband.
we talked about 15 minutes. she assured me that i treated our frienship like shit and that she can't just put her trust right back into me.
i never hurt her - i never lied to her, i never stabbed her in the back, i never nothing negative ever against her. but i did walk away because her husband didn't like me liking his wife.
i've made effort every day since saturday afternoon since we talked to be a part of her day with trying to call her and txt msgs to no avail.
and i will continue to do so.
i don't know if she's going to come around or forgive me or let me back into her world.....
i don't know if she's going to come around or forgive me or let me back into her world.....
guess we will call her P.
we have the same middle name. she is P.L and i'm E.L
we always thought that was cool. heh...
i'm sure i've talked about her before....
1 Comments:
You'd better stay out of trouble now. Leave P alone. She'll come around if she wants to, friend. Her husband views you as a threat, which he should, especially if you've told her in the past exactly how you feel about her. I'm guessing Y was terribly jealous of P, so she just assumed you were cheating on her. The bottom line is P is a married woman and her husband doesn't like you. Stay away. It's not for you to break them up; if P wants to leave him, that's up to her. You don't need the drama; you have enough of your own.
Good grief. Can you ever stay out of trouble? I realize you feel guilty for crapping out on your friendship with P because of Y. But seriously...maybe Y was onto something and knew you had a crush on P, which drove her nuts.
Tsk, tsk... Stay out of drama for a while, for E's sake.
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