this one goes out to the one i love..
ok.... you got me here.
i can't say with certainty how many times i've laid in bed thinking that i needed to post something. i think about it at work, too. i work out all these things that i think i want to say and when i finally get to the point where i am able to post something, i'm dead to the world in bed.
work.
it's exhausting.
we are amazingly busy right now and the icing on the cake - the shop is like working in an oven. two weeks ago, it was 98 in the shop.
it gets unbearable.
that same week, i noticed that by 1:00 i stopped sweating. i had downed two gallons of water by 1 in the afternoon and it was mid 90s in the shop. the fans were doing a grand job of just blowing around the hot, steamy air. and i had stopped sweating. the headache set in and i thought i was going to die.
since then, i'm just spent.
i even looked up guidelines on the oh-sha website about workplace conditions. ya, we are in violation. i think oh-sha would close us down. and knowing that a report can be done anonymously is a real turn on for me.
but i continue to chug along and hope for a promotion in the office at some point. my aunt is working on something for herself and if she lands it, it will include me as her assistant.
hello desk in the a/c! woot!!
i really love my job though. i love making things every day, doing the best i can, knowing that nothing leaves the shop until i say it's worthy, and people in hospitals and hotels and restaurants see what myself and my coworkers have made.
but i LOVE a/c more than all that.
other than the 10 mintues it takes for me to update a webpage every week, this is the first time i've been on my computer. everything i do is from my phone these days. it's just too easy..
got my new ink on the family reunion trip to gatlin.burg. it was sort of a fluke but i loved the work of one artist in particular and he really did a great job with what we talked about. my favorite flowers for both my girls and i really think the filigree really sets it all off in a feminine yet strong way.
and my arm feels balanced now.
heh..
another foreign concept i've taken advantage of - dating.
it's been ages and it's been fucking fantastic.
it's made me feel liberated and young and carefree and desirable.
it's made me realize how much i put on hold and stifled and suffered through with someone in particular.
baby girl is perfection.
she's 9 and on top of the world. she loves science summer camp. she wants to grow up to be a z00logist. "i want to work with animals but be more than a veterinarian, momma" she tells me. i love this.
big girl will be home next week for another visit.
she's growing up too damn fast and thinks she needs a car for her 18th bday.
ya, that ain't happening. no need for a car. there is one up there for her to drive and when she comes home for university, she will be 10 minutes from me - no need for a car.
i have such a rejuvenated outlook lately.
i feel great about myself and my kids.
i feel great about my home and by responsibilities.
i feel great about cutting the ties i've had to and the ties that i'm establishing.
i just feel fucking great.
now....
if i could just get my ass to chi-town for a visit and i will be in business.
miss you.
i can't say with certainty how many times i've laid in bed thinking that i needed to post something. i think about it at work, too. i work out all these things that i think i want to say and when i finally get to the point where i am able to post something, i'm dead to the world in bed.
work.
it's exhausting.
we are amazingly busy right now and the icing on the cake - the shop is like working in an oven. two weeks ago, it was 98 in the shop.
it gets unbearable.
that same week, i noticed that by 1:00 i stopped sweating. i had downed two gallons of water by 1 in the afternoon and it was mid 90s in the shop. the fans were doing a grand job of just blowing around the hot, steamy air. and i had stopped sweating. the headache set in and i thought i was going to die.
since then, i'm just spent.
i even looked up guidelines on the oh-sha website about workplace conditions. ya, we are in violation. i think oh-sha would close us down. and knowing that a report can be done anonymously is a real turn on for me.
but i continue to chug along and hope for a promotion in the office at some point. my aunt is working on something for herself and if she lands it, it will include me as her assistant.
hello desk in the a/c! woot!!
i really love my job though. i love making things every day, doing the best i can, knowing that nothing leaves the shop until i say it's worthy, and people in hospitals and hotels and restaurants see what myself and my coworkers have made.
but i LOVE a/c more than all that.
other than the 10 mintues it takes for me to update a webpage every week, this is the first time i've been on my computer. everything i do is from my phone these days. it's just too easy..
got my new ink on the family reunion trip to gatlin.burg. it was sort of a fluke but i loved the work of one artist in particular and he really did a great job with what we talked about. my favorite flowers for both my girls and i really think the filigree really sets it all off in a feminine yet strong way.
and my arm feels balanced now.
heh..
another foreign concept i've taken advantage of - dating.
it's been ages and it's been fucking fantastic.
it's made me feel liberated and young and carefree and desirable.
it's made me realize how much i put on hold and stifled and suffered through with someone in particular.
baby girl is perfection.
she's 9 and on top of the world. she loves science summer camp. she wants to grow up to be a z00logist. "i want to work with animals but be more than a veterinarian, momma" she tells me. i love this.
big girl will be home next week for another visit.
she's growing up too damn fast and thinks she needs a car for her 18th bday.
ya, that ain't happening. no need for a car. there is one up there for her to drive and when she comes home for university, she will be 10 minutes from me - no need for a car.
i have such a rejuvenated outlook lately.
i feel great about myself and my kids.
i feel great about my home and by responsibilities.
i feel great about cutting the ties i've had to and the ties that i'm establishing.
i just feel fucking great.
now....
if i could just get my ass to chi-town for a visit and i will be in business.
miss you.
2 Comments:
Awwww...and you put REM in the title for me. Shucks!
Miss you, friend. Wish you could move here. Heh.
I'm so glad all is well with you and the girls. I can't believe they're so...old already. WTF? Where did the time go?
Hey there E...just lurking around, checking up on you...Glad to see things are very positive in your life. You deserve all the happiness in the world considering all the chaos in past years...I wanna see a smile, pics of the girls one of these days....I'm still at the same email.
G3nman
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