some shit went down...
well..... big girl has been home a few days more than a week.
she's got new bedroom furniture, getting registered for her senior year next tuesday - at the same high school she went to fresh year, moved all her things from her grandparents house to my house, has been to therapy twice and the head dr once for a med change.
this evening, she went to the movies with her buddy J (my other child).
i have mixed feelings about her coming home.
well, i'm not sure if that's the correct terminology.
baby girl and i had a routine that we thrived in for two years. a routine that was fine tuned and brought us to a really good place once Y was out of the picture.
now, we have to incorporate big girl into that routine - modify that routine that has us going in a great direction. not that that is a bad thing, mind you. i feel truly lucky to have big girl home where she belongs. but i'm already seeing it within baby girl - the sadness and disappointment of having to share me with someone again.
this weekend, i spent a lot of time in big girl's room putting together furniture. it's nothing i wanted to do but i had to so it would get done. baby girl had a hard time understanding why i was spending so much time with big girl and not her.
i know... i know... it's a series of adjustments that we all have to get used to all over again. but it's going to be a long period of adjustment. one that comes right before school starting (aug 23).
and big girl talked me into setting up and account with an 0nline dating site. i haven't done anything more than set up the profile and answer about 9,529 questions - all in the effort to match, mind you. there isn't much else i can do until i pay and i'm having a hard time justifying that part of it.
remember last year when i spoke of a guy that i dated in high school and broke up with him to date R ? another J for the ranks.
anyway - he and his son will be in the area this weekend for their annual vacation. i'm looking forward to it, to seeing him and his son again.
J is engaged to a really nice gal that he met through an 0nline inter.racial dating site. i met her when they passed through several months ago on their way to the south end of the state.
that means - no playing nudist this trip with J. heh..
and i'm jonesing for more ink. already.
i want one behind my ear. i want it to say "heh.."
my attitude towards life.
i don't have much to say about R right now. i'm very disappointed in him. i can say this with certainty.
and i don't think i have much to say about bl00ger right now either. it's changed. i don't know yet if for the better or not...
whadda'ya think?
she's got new bedroom furniture, getting registered for her senior year next tuesday - at the same high school she went to fresh year, moved all her things from her grandparents house to my house, has been to therapy twice and the head dr once for a med change.
this evening, she went to the movies with her buddy J (my other child).
i have mixed feelings about her coming home.
well, i'm not sure if that's the correct terminology.
baby girl and i had a routine that we thrived in for two years. a routine that was fine tuned and brought us to a really good place once Y was out of the picture.
now, we have to incorporate big girl into that routine - modify that routine that has us going in a great direction. not that that is a bad thing, mind you. i feel truly lucky to have big girl home where she belongs. but i'm already seeing it within baby girl - the sadness and disappointment of having to share me with someone again.
this weekend, i spent a lot of time in big girl's room putting together furniture. it's nothing i wanted to do but i had to so it would get done. baby girl had a hard time understanding why i was spending so much time with big girl and not her.
i know... i know... it's a series of adjustments that we all have to get used to all over again. but it's going to be a long period of adjustment. one that comes right before school starting (aug 23).
and big girl talked me into setting up and account with an 0nline dating site. i haven't done anything more than set up the profile and answer about 9,529 questions - all in the effort to match, mind you. there isn't much else i can do until i pay and i'm having a hard time justifying that part of it.
remember last year when i spoke of a guy that i dated in high school and broke up with him to date R ? another J for the ranks.
anyway - he and his son will be in the area this weekend for their annual vacation. i'm looking forward to it, to seeing him and his son again.
J is engaged to a really nice gal that he met through an 0nline inter.racial dating site. i met her when they passed through several months ago on their way to the south end of the state.
that means - no playing nudist this trip with J. heh..
and i'm jonesing for more ink. already.
i want one behind my ear. i want it to say "heh.."
my attitude towards life.
i don't have much to say about R right now. i'm very disappointed in him. i can say this with certainty.
and i don't think i have much to say about bl00ger right now either. it's changed. i don't know yet if for the better or not...
whadda'ya think?
1 Comments:
Please don't make a typo in your tattoo. Heh...
It should have three periods OR only one. NEVER two and NEVER more than three.
Those three periods are called an ellipsis and are used to indicate a pause in speech, an unfinished thought, or, at the end of a sentence, a trailing off into silence (aposiopesis). When placed at the end of a sentence, the ellipsis can also inspire a feeling of melancholy longing. The ellipsis calls for a slight pause in speech.
I'm just sayin'.
And quit yer bitchin about how her move back home is going to throw a wrench in what was already good. Everyone needs to adjust, just like you said. It won't happen overnight. Tiny E will survive. Kids are resilient; adults, not so much.
Are you sure you're not the one who's more uprooted from the routine?
I'm glad she's back; now her father's neglect can't kill her. Look at the bigger picture.
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