i'm standing at the crossroads - believe i'm sinking down..
i'm going through one of those periods of feeling as if i'm standing at a cross roads.
decisions to be made, things happening that are out of my control, time slipping away too fast....
too much uncertainty makes me anxious and i have panic attacks.
today alone, i've had at least 4 panic attacks.
kids are good. dogs are good. cat is good.
car isn't wrecked. house hasn't burned down.
no one really knows what's going on in my head right now.
no one really needs to know.
last week, i was supposed to have some very minor 'in the office' surgery. it should have been at least. but the dr decided i needed to be in the hospital for it. so that's happening this coming wednesday. gotta be at the hospital at 6am. most likely will stay the night.
and - as usual - i'm scared shitless.
it should have been a minor thing but it's too close to my femoral vessels - needs imaging during surgery.
between work tomorrow and tuesday, i've got about two weeks of work to do.
it's going to be a long weekend working...
decisions to be made, things happening that are out of my control, time slipping away too fast....
too much uncertainty makes me anxious and i have panic attacks.
today alone, i've had at least 4 panic attacks.
kids are good. dogs are good. cat is good.
car isn't wrecked. house hasn't burned down.
no one really knows what's going on in my head right now.
no one really needs to know.
last week, i was supposed to have some very minor 'in the office' surgery. it should have been at least. but the dr decided i needed to be in the hospital for it. so that's happening this coming wednesday. gotta be at the hospital at 6am. most likely will stay the night.
and - as usual - i'm scared shitless.
it should have been a minor thing but it's too close to my femoral vessels - needs imaging during surgery.
between work tomorrow and tuesday, i've got about two weeks of work to do.
it's going to be a long weekend working...
1 Comments:
Call in sick and tell them to fuck themselves. You can't possibly fit all that work into two days, so say fuck it and don't do any of it. The company will have to figure out how to do it without you, especially if they want to honor the contract.
Your health and sanity are more important.
And if you don't want to call in sick, then quit altogether. It's not a career; it's not even a job; it's slave labor and there are laws against that.
Just my two cents.
Post a Comment
Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]
<< Home