this day in history
this time 10 years ago, i was going to tech school in south ge0rgia and actively pursuing my degree in c0mputer inf0rmation systems. i had worn jeans and a d.m.b tshirt and my blue c0nverse and was carrying my raincoat as the rain was intermittent.
walking through the halls, everything was strangely empty. but when i entered my data.base class, everyone was in their seats and silent, eyes glued to the tv in the corner.
the first plane had just hit.
for the rest of the day, we sat in those same chairs with our eyes glued to the tv in the corner.
we cried, we were in shock, we were scared, we were in awe of the events.
we didn't know what to expect next....
fast forward 10 years.
i have a 17 year old and a 9 year old. the oldest remembers that day, the youngest wasn't even conceived that day (but not too long thereafter). i live back in my home town and have three dogs, two of which are worth over $3,000 each. i drive a much larger vehicle than i ever have before and live a life that some would consider luxury.
i never did anything with that c.i.s degree other than fix the computers of my family members and be the one they all consult when it comes time to purchase a new computer.
i've just recently paid to join a reputable dating website with hopes of finding someone that is not crazy, self absorbed, bip0lar, or doesn't expect me to put them above my children. i'm not looking for love - i just want to find someone i can connect with and share good times. since the last person i was involved with created a situation in which the friends i did have went their own ways, it would be nice to find someone to go to baseball games with, adult movies with, maybe a night out as adults...
so today, i guess i'm reflecting on all the have/have nots, the what has/what if's, and the future.
i know i miss my friends and long for a trip to anywhere.
and i want my youngest bull to be old enough to breed.
and my girls to keep thriving and excelling in this life that will just keep throwing curve balls at them.
nothing will ever be the same..
walking through the halls, everything was strangely empty. but when i entered my data.base class, everyone was in their seats and silent, eyes glued to the tv in the corner.
the first plane had just hit.
for the rest of the day, we sat in those same chairs with our eyes glued to the tv in the corner.
we cried, we were in shock, we were scared, we were in awe of the events.
we didn't know what to expect next....
fast forward 10 years.
i have a 17 year old and a 9 year old. the oldest remembers that day, the youngest wasn't even conceived that day (but not too long thereafter). i live back in my home town and have three dogs, two of which are worth over $3,000 each. i drive a much larger vehicle than i ever have before and live a life that some would consider luxury.
i never did anything with that c.i.s degree other than fix the computers of my family members and be the one they all consult when it comes time to purchase a new computer.
i've just recently paid to join a reputable dating website with hopes of finding someone that is not crazy, self absorbed, bip0lar, or doesn't expect me to put them above my children. i'm not looking for love - i just want to find someone i can connect with and share good times. since the last person i was involved with created a situation in which the friends i did have went their own ways, it would be nice to find someone to go to baseball games with, adult movies with, maybe a night out as adults...
so today, i guess i'm reflecting on all the have/have nots, the what has/what if's, and the future.
i know i miss my friends and long for a trip to anywhere.
and i want my youngest bull to be old enough to breed.
and my girls to keep thriving and excelling in this life that will just keep throwing curve balls at them.
nothing will ever be the same..
EDIT: i'm having some outpatient surgery this week. it's nothing major. just painfully close to my femoral artery. that's the part that scares me the most. one nick of that and not only am i a bleeder, i'm most likely a goner.
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