#493
I'm sitting on my back porch. The weather is great - about 50 and very crisp. My phone is struggling for life.
Been busy at work. Learning a new shop system program with more on my plate.
Bring it on.
Feelings of desperation when it comes to dating. I want to call up someone I used to know and just fuck.
I'm not sure why this person in particular - we had ok sex and always a comfortable feeling when we spent time over the years.
Maybe the draw is the comfort I know that's associated with it.
I don't know.
I did see him on the 4th - the day I had my temp crown put on. We've exchanged a few txt msgs since but no plans.
I'm not pursuing it.
The purge of my house feels good.
The motivation of interior paint has me on a time frame.
Still - baby steps.
Been busy at work. Learning a new shop system program with more on my plate.
Bring it on.
Feelings of desperation when it comes to dating. I want to call up someone I used to know and just fuck.
I'm not sure why this person in particular - we had ok sex and always a comfortable feeling when we spent time over the years.
Maybe the draw is the comfort I know that's associated with it.
I don't know.
I did see him on the 4th - the day I had my temp crown put on. We've exchanged a few txt msgs since but no plans.
I'm not pursuing it.
The purge of my house feels good.
The motivation of interior paint has me on a time frame.
Still - baby steps.
3 Comments:
Baby steps? BS.
Did you follow through with the phone company about blocking her number from calling you?
Watch those urges. They usually get you into trouble. It's not love or sex you want. It's intimacy, trust, and companionship...a sense of belonging that can blossom into love once trust is established. You won't find those things when you're searching with lust as your disguise, your veil, your mask.
Focus on the girls. You come last. Find your happiness in their eyes until they're ready to fly. You'll know when that time is. Why do you keep searching for windmills in places that inevitably break you?
Learn from the past. I'm just sayin'. If you keep making the same mistakes, then the problem isn't really others; it's you. Fix you first before you attempt to give what you don't have.
Number is blocked.
Cards, letters, gifts, trinkets, photos and anything else I could find are gone.
Mentally and emotionally, I'm closed off to her.
As for the rest - I just wanna get laid.
Heh...
Heh. Use your toys...for now.
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