it's been awhile

things have been eventful lately.

- grandmother in and out of hospital. spent time with her through her recovery and learned a lot about my mema.
I never imagined holding my grandma as she cried in my arms.

- annual dmb show was great. was with J and big girl.
as much as I love J,  it's got to stop. I will never have her and she will never want me.

- yearly evaluations at work are this week. already been told no raises. I want a new position.
I am going to ask what they see my future as and tell them what I want my future to be with the company.

- I've got the itch to move. I want land and a garden and a perimeter that I can walk in the evening and a tree house and a sheep to help me mow.

- going to square away some more info about our upcoming trip. when we come to chi.town, my mom and step dad want to come. after the visit for the wedding in the winter, they loved it enough to want to go back. 

- I'm wiped out again.
can you tell?