family

well....
I'm glad I went.
the cousin that lives the farthest away (cape.c0d) is the one I could totally be tight with.
the one that lives the closest, she's stuck up.
little bro cousin- he's my father made over. I could not believe how his mannerisms and articulation and tics and everything but the age... my dad.
I could totally party with him and his wife.
I don't really remember my auntie but I did think immediately how old she seemed.

we ate and talked for a few hours. there was a vibe that seemed to surround us all, like maybe they knew I had a problem with my dad about not seeing them?
and apparently the cousin that lives elsewhere frequently gets email and video, from my dad, of the baby.

as I sorta took in my surroundings, I began to notice how familiar most of the stuff was. 90% of the things in my aunties house- kitchen table, statues, art, tables- were from my dads house when he moved away.
this made me resent my dad some more.

anyway...  I would like to have another opportunity to do it all over again.