today

well.... today is the day.
I didn't sleep very well last night and I'm exhausted. but my head is going a zillion miles an hour.

the one thing that I have made such a big deal about with my dad - not knowing my family....   and here it is.

in a way, it feels like I'm walking into so much uncertainty. these people are strangers basically.
but they are my family I have never known. and its so very scary and intimidating and exciting and scary.